Diary of an Unborn Child
October 5 Today my life
began. My parents do not know it yet, I am as small as a seed of an apple, but
it is I already. And I am to be a girl. I shall have blond hair and blue eyes.
Just about everything is settled though, even the fact that I shall love
October 19 Some
say that I am not a real person yet, that only my mother exists. But I am a real
person, just as a small crumb of bread is yet truly bread. My mother is. And I
October 23 My mouth is
just beginning to open now. Just think, in a year or so I shall be laughing and
later talking. I know what my first word will be: MAMA.
October 25 My heart began
to beat today all by itself. From now on it shall gently beat for the rest of my
life without ever stopping to rest! And after many years it will tire. It will
stop, and then I shall die.
November 2 I
am growing a bit every day. My arms and legs are beginning to take shape. But I
have to wait a long time yet before those little legs will raise me to my
mother's arms, before these little arms will be able to gather flowers and
embrace my father.
Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. Funny how small they are! I'll
be able to stroke my mother's hair with them.
It wasn't until today that the doctor told mom that I am living here under her
heart. Oh, how happy she must be! Are you happy, mom?
My mom and dad are probably thinking about a name for me. But they don't even
know that I am a little girl. I want to be called Kathy. I am getting so big
My hair is growing. It is smooth and bright and shiny. I wonder what kind of
hair mom has.
13 I am just about able to see. It is dark around me. When mom brings me
into the world it will be full of sunshine and flowers. But what I want more
than anything is to see my mom. How do you look, mom?
I wonder if mom hears the whispering of my heart? Some children come into the
world a little sick. But my heart is strong and healthy. It beats so evently:
tup-tup, tup-tup. You'll have a healthy little daughter, mom!
Today my mother killed me.
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